Stand Up.

haro peeplo

2010-06-24T23:14:00.003+08:00

wow, cobwebs all around.
im the only reader herE! (:

midyears exams starting tmr, im.. kinda abit more confident this time round?
just abit more.

been reading up on lotsa stuff, abt city harvest thingy and so on.
i believe in Pst Kong.

talking abt psts, kinda miss em too.
miss dom n zone f too.

anyway, still love God (:
He's one pleasant little guy with really strong stuff.
watch out.

aight man, heading off,
gona do some updates every once in a long long while,
keep the lookout, you random passers-by. (:

lets go.

2010-03-21T00:03:00.001+08:00

im done here.

im leaving this life of regrets.

i'll achieve much more.
i believe.

maybe you'd know.

2010-03-16T23:24:00.001+08:00

remembering.

2010-02-19T21:41:00.003+08:00

its been a year since it all started.
some things, once lost, are never found again.
over time, i've lost some and gained some.
but of course, these things i've lost, are far far more precious to me than everything i've ever gained.
yet they will be so, so hard to get back because its not as easy as it is anymore.

its hard to accept how things turned out, but in one way or another, i've got to accept them.
grit my teeth and live life out.
its not easy without the people whom i onced called brothers, but if it has happen, i'll have to get through no matter how hard it will be.
i miss them, i miss how things were. i miss them all dearly.
somewhere along the way, i had to take a break. and during this break, i lost something so important, so vital, so unknowingly.
its a pity i cant seem to forget.

of course, these are all really beautiful memories. sparkling, lovely ones, forever with me.

but sometimes, we've just got to wake up to the nightmares.

2010-02-15T01:44:00.000+08:00

wheres the commitment to find commitment..?

after so long, i still need You. :)

You are still the point.

2010-02-14T18:42:00.002+08:00

rebelling seems real good.
but its only suicide.

desire there, death's there.
cant get what i wanna get.

smirking.

2010-01-26T23:33:00.003+08:00

i ain't gonna do what i don't want to.
i'm gonna live my life,
shining like a diamond, rollin' with a dice.
Standing on the ledge and show the wind how to fly

cause when the world gets in my face,
i say...

have a nice day.

;)

what the world thinks about me,
only comes true when i think it's about me.

wow... be strong.

2009-12-05T00:59:00.014+08:00

The moment he was born, Mathew Rudes was whisked away before his mother could see him. Doctors wanted to find an explanation for his extra long body, malleable head and folded limbs before facing his parents.

Mathew Rudes, 21, may be one of the oldest people alive with a severe form of Marfan syndrome.

(Courtesy Carol Rudes)

"They wouldn't show Matt to me and I knew something was wrong, because he's my third child," said his mother, Carol Rudes.

She said she remembers the doctors warning her that her son had no bones in his feet and that he had brain damage. Then the nurses began consoling her, quite sure her baby would die before he left the hospital.

They were wrong, in many ways.

Rudes lived, wrote a book before he was 11 years old and graduated valedictorian of his law and government magnet high school in North Hills, Calif. Now 21, he is due to graduate with honors from the University of California Los Angeles this spring and then head off to law school in the fall.

He did all this despite suffering agonizing complications from a severe form of Marfan syndrome, a genetic mutation historians believe affected Abraham Lincoln and ancient Egyptian pharaoh Tutankhamen.

Fighting Since Birth

Rudes has something to say to anyone who has been misdiagnosed, has a disability or has fought the words "you can't."

"I have survived my disabilities, I have survived my pain syndrome and I have survived the burning gaze of people who assume that I must be mentally retarded because I am in a wheelchair," Rudes wrote in a memo to ABC News.

"You cannot let disability, pain or worse -- people's assumptions -- rule your life; this is my life mantra. I live or die by these words," wrote Rudes.

Rudes is not kidding about life or death. The first assumption he and his mother fought was that his condition would kill him.

One in 5,000 people have Marfan syndrome, a mutation in the fibrilin1 gene that affects the production of the protein fibrilin in connective tissue. As a result, connective tissue in the body can weaken, affecting the eyes, blood vessels, skeleton, heart and skin.

Marfan syndrome may be mild and only diagnosed in adulthood or it can be severe and evident at birth. Marfan patients often grow long and lean, well above 6 feet for both sexes. Their joints may become extremely flexible and weak, they may develop scoliosis and the lenses in their eyes can begin to dislocate.

But what causes the most concern is the aorta, the artery that delivers blood from the heart to the body, because it may loosen, expand and tear.

The geneticist who diagnosed Rudes at birth is amazed that he's living at all.

"Mathew is probably one of the oldest surviving, if not the oldest surviving infantile Marfan case," said Rena Falk, a geneticist at Cedars-Sinai Medical Center in Los Angeles. "Most patients with infantile Marfan syndrome are dead long before age 22."

To survive, Rudes endured 13 surgeries: two major heart surgeries, several orthopedic surgeries, eye surgery -- and a lot of pain. He was legally blind as a child and lost the ability to walk shortly before middle school.

At school, Rudes excelled despite missing months of classes. At the hospital, Rudes developed yet another debilitating complication -- chronic pain.

Pain or Mind Games?

"If pain is not treated well, it can develop a life of its own," said Lonnie Zeltzer, Rudes' doctor and director of the Pediatric Pain Program at Mattel Children's Hospital of The University of California Los Angeles.

"We now know in pain medicine that, especially during childhood, if pain is not well-treated you actually start changing the development of your nervous system," Zeltzer said.

When Rudes had too little pain medication after a surgery, his nerves kept up a constant firing of pain signals, which in turn resulted in a buildup of chemicals called neurotransmitters.

These chemicals slowly changed some of the nerves that feel pressure, warmth or cold, into nerves that carry pain signals, Zeltzer said.

"It ups the volume and the amount of traffic of pain signals from your organs, from your skin going to the nerve fibers in the spinal cord," she said.

Over time, the high volume of pain signals actually changed how his brain interpreted messages, creating haywire warnings.

At one point Rudes' system devolved so much that his brain could interpret even the slightest touch as excruciating pain.

An example of one such touch happened in 1995, when Rudes was lying in his hospital bed covered in bandages after an orthopedic surgery.

"I left his side to go get a soda down the hall," said Carol Rudes. "The only thing that was exposed were Mathew's toes."

While she was out, a pediatrician walked into the room.

"For some reason he touched Mathew's toes and that sent him into such pain his heart rate went up; he was screaming, alarms went off and they had to call the cardiologist," Carol said. He only calmed down after receiving an IV of Valium.

Rudes continued to develop intense pain after his recovery. Much of it is a blur to him, but his mother remembers watching her son suffer.

"He had seizures, he would go blind for short periods of time, and he would have just incredible pain and he was just forced to scream out," Carol said.

At one point Rudes became so desperate, he tried to commit suicide by swallowing a handful of blood thinners. The pain was so intense and the cause so elusive, Rudes' doctors thought he was crazy.

"It was just -- the manifestations of the pain syndrome were just unique, that there weren't any physical explanations," he said. "The easiest way to explain it was that you were faking it."

Rudes' mother is less forgiving of those who misjudged the situation.

"I remember having a big talk with the pain team and the psyche team. … I kept saying just give him a chance, I know this is not psychological, it's not," she said.

Finally, doctors found some explanations. For one, Rudes had needed his gall bladder out for nearly a year.

His doctors also did an MRI scan and discovered little pockets, or sacs, along his spine that were pooling and leaking spinal fluid. These pockets, called dural ecstasias, occasionally develop as a result of Marfan syndrome.

While there is no procedure to safely remove dural ecstasias, there are drugs to ease his pain: OxyContin, Ketamine, methadone, Valium and liquid morphine for serious breakthrough pain.

Victorious, yet Pain His Hardest Battle

"Sitting right before me is a 30-day pill box -- each day has a morning, afternoon, night container of around 10 or so pills," Rudes said. "That's enough to kill a whole middle school."

Rudes said he feels as though he emerged from a dark mist, now able and ready to play what cards fate has dealt him.

He's bedridden for most of the day and can stand up on his own long enough to pivot into his wheelchair. His mother drives him to school and assists him on his way to class. Rudes says he spends the rest of his days at home, "where I man the helm of my hospital bed as I study, read books and play the occasional video game."

"I always felt that if I had no other problems than just being in a wheelchair, I'd have a wonderful life," Rudes said. "It's all the offshoots of pain that contribute to a very complicated web indeed."

credits : ABC News

link: http://abcnews.go.com/Health/PainNews/story?id=4758746&page=1

funny how.

2009-11-13T00:51:00.004+08:00

today im back at this dilemma again.
hate to need You when i do need You.
hate to not need You when i do not need You.

bring me through this!

i believe.

yay!

2009-11-01T23:54:00.000+08:00

all i wanna say is...
WOOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

(:

i believe if i feel it or not.

what a quarter-life crisis.

2009-10-27T21:57:00.003+08:00

thank God that many many years ago, Pst How told me to keep a thought-book.
penning my thoughts down just clears my heart.

the problems dont go away.
the worries dont go away.

but somehow, writing to God just clears everything in my heart.
just feels so much better.
the weight of the problems just dont weigh in anymore..

thanks God.
still, You reign...

hope

2009-10-22T00:03:00.001+08:00

thank God for all the people around.

over everything Lord, You reign.

appeal.

untitled.

2009-10-20T00:42:00.003+08:00

feels so far.

trying to hold on to something i dont have.
trying to grab hold.
just trying.

see, i dont have much.
im desperate.
unreasonably desperate for You at this hour.

maybe i need You for tomorrow.
after that, maybe no more.

thats the perpetual prodigal son.
sucked into this cycle,
laugh about me.

this is a joke man.
my life's a joke.
what a joke.

waiting.

2009-10-06T23:27:00.004+08:00

everything dont seem to go my way.
everything's so faraway.
feel the distance.
feel the fear.
feel life sucked out.
feel the dread of living.
this is bad bad crap.

keep telling yourself to set things straight,
but thats another lie. its not gonna happen.
keep hoping for the better,
when you know the worst's yet to come.

you tell yourself to not worry and make yourself feel better,
when at that corner of your mind, you know its all just a big lie.
you know your world's gonna fall.

and they say they understand, they agree.
but if they dont feel it, how then can they understand?
you are not friends. you are sympathizin me. i dont need that.

i dont need someone to tell me its okay,
i just need someone to scream with.

everything is wrong.
wrong wrong wrong.
right from the start its all wrong.
so darn wrong.

im nearing my limit.

have a goodnight,
with angst and frustration.

wheres the light?!

studying.

2009-10-03T19:51:00.003+08:00

when dreams turns to goals,
its time to watch out.

its when idealism turns to realism.

its when growing up sucks you in and staying childlike counts no more.

doing well in studies,
is just a goal.

your dreams are the marathon you're running.
your goals are just the water stops that get you there.

dont get sucked in by the water stops.
keep running for whats real.

an irony how these words come outta me.
i understand life but i cant get life.

so... dreams?
:/

nah.

2009-09-30T22:33:00.003+08:00

thinking bout it,
fights have yet to leave me.

in fact.. there's just this one big fight of my life i've yet to win.
and it seems hard to find the way out of it.

:/
tired.

someone great said this...
"Nothin splendid has ever been achieved except by those who dared believe that something inside them was superior to circumstances."
lets trust..

i've yet to drop off the cliff. thank God..

hello..

2009-09-24T22:40:00.000+08:00

FIGHTS,

where have you gone to?

something thats real.

2009-09-18T00:57:00.005+08:00

sometimes, i wish i was somebody else.
someone who isnt feeling what im feeling.
someone else who has much more to expect in life, to look forward to in life.
somebody who can always have a laugh and keep on smiling.

sometimes, i wish i am just a face in the crowd.
someone who goes about his daily life. who seems to be contented. who seems to be in control of himself.
someone who can cruise through life, relaxed..

but i am different. different good different bad i dont know. just different.
and thank God im different.

i fight these insignificant battles,
then i dont wanna be somebody else.
i love me but i dont love what im in.
i wanna have something to look foward to, having so much optimism and drive in life.
i wanna love me, love what im doing, love life.

but i dont wanna just be another face in the crowd.
thats never enough for me. i dont wanna be just content with myself..

i think im greedy.
but i only have 1 life to live. so if its not now, then when?
im 17, and thats already old. means i've got 17 years wasted. how much more do i have?
its my life. i cant blame myself for wanting more.
time's slipping away, life's slipping away.

this isnt right.
im not in what im supposed to be.
if theres a reset button i've would have done pressed it long ago.

whatever it is, im starting to have You in my thoughts.
its no longer as frequent as it was. but once in every while, You come up.
im done running away. im done avoiding You.
im sick of this lifelessness. tired.
im really sick of this.

because not knowing You is not knowing me.
and life's not easy because we both are not at ease.
You keep chasing, i keep running. till when, i still do not know.
all i know, is that im getting tired.

but im glad the weekends are near.
gonna put the heavy baggage down at the foot of the cross.
its been a long while.
reuse me.

living rain, pour again...

and so i'll sing a new song.

*pulls

2009-09-01T01:45:00.004+08:00

tug tug.. tug tug..

hear that?

guess the heartstrings are pulling again.
feeling it again and again.

life is not easy, this year is crappy.
im slowing to a halt in life.
feeling lost is the new feeling fine.

fog is thick, im blinded. and this is getting to my head.
im not getting there and time is running out.
the world doesnt wait for me anymore, change is here. bad news.

if all you need to save a life, was 5 dollars and 15minutes, would you give it?
someone wouldnt.

so, who am i?
tonight, i sleep with blended disappointment, disgust, distaste and discourse.

tug tug.. tug tug..

help me

2009-08-24T22:59:00.002+08:00

to fight the good fight, to stay in the light, smiling on the inside...

lets hope this wontlast forever.

i desperately need a breakthrough.
guide me there God, help me..!

its getting foggy and i cant see.
stretch Your hand and take me.

help me.
help me.
let me be carried by You.

Job.

ahhh.

2009-08-17T22:54:00.000+08:00

life isnt easy.

:(

just as i am.

2009-08-14T00:13:00.006+08:00

today i read a blog.

on the surface, it seemed normal, going about everyday life... doing whats supposed to be done.
just living life.

but i got more than what i bargained for.
i wanted to know what was going on in his life.
yet i got to understand what was going on in his heart.
i was impacted.

he did not purposefully shared his heart to show it.
he just blogged about what he did and it simply showed it.
and it hit home, so much harder.

he's living for others.

without the others, there is no him.

Majesty.

uhh.

2009-08-12T21:55:00.000+08:00

somehow, i find myself holding on.
uh-uh.
He's good. still good.
thank God for God.
lets see how this goes...

one the other hand,
you're still weak.
noob.

life is beautiful?

2009-08-10T21:10:00.004+08:00

im becoming who i cant be.

save me.

not down.

2009-08-01T00:26:00.004+08:00

i dont fear you devil.

i dont flinch at this.
this is nothing.

i wont give up.
i'll give everything to take you on.
i cant be bought over, i cant be lured away.
i am different from the world.

i have told you, you're nothing to me.
this stands true.

i dont fear you. not even the slightest.
3 years, im still here.
still here, counting, walking, running on.

you cant stop me, weakling.

im still the world's greatest.
with God.

hola hola

2009-07-27T23:05:00.000+08:00

life is not easy nowadays.

have to watch where im heading.
every step is a possible pithole...

gotta discern more,
gotta be aware and reflective as i go on and life live.

got a few balls to juggle now, but its pretty hollow inside.
i need more substance inside.
i need to work more.
i need to run the engine thats been rusting in that corner for way too long.

its not easy, but then again, this makes living life worthwhile.

life just isnt life, if its only a bed of roses.

im loving this fight.
lets go, pick up the pieces, and run.

hey!

2009-07-16T23:09:00.005+08:00

aye man, just did up a new mp3 player on the blog!
contains all the songs i like in this season man, enjoy!
and if you dont like it.. you can always switch it off! hahah.

have a great week, im having mine greatly.

lotsa lurvvve.

taken down Rise by Hillsong London, i've got it in the player.
enjoy, and joy.

Rise - Hillsong London
Ocean Wide - The Afters
Out Of This World - Jonas Bros
Learning To Fall - This Beautiful Republic
Whatever You're Doing - Sanctus Real
Never Going Back To OK - The Afters
When Our Hearts Sing - Rush Of Fools
One In A Million - Run Kid Run
Freedom - Run Kid Run
Crashing Down - Mat Kearney
Take Me - Hawk Nelson
Good Times - Tommy Lee
Until The World - The Afters

have fun!

shout it out

2009-07-13T00:04:00.010+08:00

'Rise' by Hillsongs London is good.

have been listening to it alot recently. its like a shout, its like a warcry. *wink*
its really really powerful.

We are your light Lord, we're gonna shine God,
And be the answer to the hurt and broken
This generation we lead them all to you

The declaration of Your salvation, is life lived complete in You
No more stranger to God the answer,
We give our all to You

Givin our lives, for what we know and believe in You
Now is the time, show the world You're the Way and the Truth

The church will rise to be, the hands to reach the lost and meet the unmet needs
We will be a revolution
We take a stand today and put our hands to what we know oh God we pray
We will be a revolution

And Your Love will remain for all the world
For Your Grace never fails, it's undeserved.

wow.. you really really have to listen to it.
its been stirring up alot of faith and drive in my heart.

the past week's great! couldnt ask for anything better. AR Bernard's sermons were mindblowing, and Pst How's 1st Zone F service sermon on Knowledge, Wisdom & Understanding was apt for the new school term. just felt myself breakthrough in many areas..

Anthropological Hypostatic Union.
Success - Visible & Invisible.

haha. its great. powered to take on so many things man. lets put knowledge to use man!
gotta love the invisible all over again.. just falling in love with everything again, anew.

i have my Reasoned Trust. lets go...!

today, i take back what the devil stole.

yahooo!

2009-07-09T22:08:00.007+08:00

im so excited!!

i've got a bootylicious beauty sleeping beside me every night from today onwards... & mum allowed!
she's got THE amazing curves..
she's got THE voice..

worst thing is... i really cant keep my hands off her. crap.

so mesmerized... HAHA...

*edits*

and the girl is my new Maestro EJ-2!
haha... just so excited getting it on thurs man.
have been playing it everyday.
its ours 3rd day anniversary today! woohooo.. brought her to church, ha.
im so crazy over it.. haha.

now... breakthroughs after breakthroughs.
lets start this revolution...!

*

A.R Bernard!

looking forward to friday&saturday..
wanna change and impact some lives..
(:

guits.

2009-07-09T00:09:00.004+08:00

have been going around looking at forums @ G4C on guits.
saw something i thought was worth a post.

"Reality is we do see the flaws and the scratches and the blings and the woods and the grain pattern and the brand and the list goes on and on.... Many of which, sometimes or most of the time, have no immediate or dramatic impact on the tone or playability. I think we all know that and agree.

Some of us are bothered by such things (to various extents) and some are not.

We also know that Willie Nelson with a big hole in his guitar still made great music throughout his career.

Some Christian artists almost never appear with the same guitar twice and are deemed no less spiritual.

Some people drive a 1.6L Toyota, some drive a 3L BMW... both can only carry 5 persons and observe the same traffic laws.

Some churches have 3 guitarists, 1 bassist, 2 keyboard players, 1 drummer, 1 percussionist and a 20-member choir. Some have just 3 instrumentalists and 1 backup singer.

Some of us make do with what we are blessed with and some enjoy the chase."

whoever and whatever we are, we all just serve one purpose.
we build the Kingdom.

think.

sometime, somewhere.

2009-07-07T23:13:00.002+08:00

when you're alone, you think alot.

sometimes, thinking alot is good.
keeps you in line with idealism.
keeps you in line with drive and tenacity.
keeps you in line with everything you've missed out too.. good or bad.

been spending more time with peers my age recently these days. seeing them in all the different jcs and lifestyles they lead, hmm, its a funny time spent. but nothing goes beyond that and nothing goes beyond them. shallow. its getting empty.

have been stumbling upon really nice words and quotes by people that make me think so much deeper. God's been working behind the curtains.. but i saw You! haha. You're always great... You just dont give up, do You? i like it that way... haha.

'Treat people as you expect them to be, not as they are' - Shaq O'Neal.

i hope it hits a homerun.
it hit a big one in mine.

managed to spend sometime alone in plaza sing today, @ yamaha.
felt the steel underneath the fingertips for a good 5 mins...
never felt so at home, so at peace for a long long long time.

the sound resonated in my heart, more than just in the ears. it resounded. it lingered.
its a love revived.. its a heart thumping, again.
this weekend. (:

its a new cry this season.
cry amidst the cries.

without You.. everything is meaningless.
everything is, and will be, meaningless.

'served a way into destiny'

2009-07-03T05:17:00.000+08:00

this song means alot to me.
it holds so many words so true.
it holds so many words i wanna cry em out.

enjoy.

i still think... without You, its still meaningless.

thanks Ivan.

3 years later. and im still in your face. whaddaya gonna do?

2009-06-27T03:46:00.004+08:00

you know what?

continue to batter me.
continue to beat me up.
im waiting.
waiting for your trash to end.

continue to put me down,
just do it.
kick the crap out of me.

you know what?

you're such a weakling.
you just cant get the job done.
you're a piece of trash.
you're just a piece of crap.

im waiting,
still waiting.
is this your best?
hah, weak.
im.
still.
waiting.

you know what?

you're just wasting my time.
if you cant do it, then move away.
get someone better.
get a life.

you know what?

some people dont let go.
some people can hang by the cliff by one hand forever.
some people are amazing.
some people...
just.
cant.
die.

im your reason why some people's fired up this evening.

you know what?

piss off devil.
you're a piece of crap.
weak.
3 years later, im still in your face.

sound the alarm.

2009-06-22T23:24:00.009+08:00

this sickness is getting bad man.
fever's coming on, and the cough wont go away.
wanted to get a doc, but its already late into the night,
tomorrow perhaps.

have got 6 out of 8 symptoms of H1N1.. haha...
lets hope they close down PJC soon. :D
whatever man, just get this away..
God, still need You.

really missing the feel of cold steel under my fingertips.
missing it badly.. so badly.
its funny how this gets deferred time and time again.
so funny its almost heartbreaking.
in anycase, its a love.
its not a mission anymore.
its a love.
its not a dream anymore.
break my heart again.

lets close this.
wallow in self-pity.
this is a labyrinth, and there is an exit.
its either you find it, or you're lost in it. forever.

gdnight.
have a good rest
while i lie awake with this.

who doesnt matter anymore.

2009-06-18T00:14:00.003+08:00

sometimes you wonder and you wonder hard.
life is not a bed of roses.
neither is it a bed of thorns.

sometimes the heart goes cold.
in a moment it burns so bright.

somethings you gotta know,
somethings you gotta catch.
but then sometimes,
only sometimes...
there's a line over everything.

its caps you, it caps me.
that makes everything a lil harder...

and..

a lil more... exciting.. (:

i know.

2009-06-15T23:05:00.003+08:00

give me a lil more time.
i've got the sling... now let me choose the stones...
just a lil more time.

after all of this, i'll search the lion and the bear out.
then we'll talk again.

You kept silent.

under Your wing.

2009-06-12T23:53:00.002+08:00

one strike of this match left.

'sometimes, it comes down to the very last moment'

carry me.

2009-05-27T19:45:00.006+08:00

im thankful for this group of people. really thankful..

sometimes, we just have to be thick-skinned..
thick enough that words wont drive you away..
thick enough to stand up to the storms and keep going on...
we all have gotta be that 'buay paiseh' person once in awhile.

i believe because people believed in me.

i hope you'll believe too because im believing in you.

we change, we all do.
sometimes its just a weakness, sometimes its just for good.
sometimes, it just has to happen.
but in the end what you center around counts the most.
today im going back to savour that, clinging on tighter to that.

im cherishing You.
You are more than what i can ever ask for.

Your love shined today on this ordinary, ordinary day.

You spoke.

2009-05-26T22:03:00.002+08:00

You're keeping me alive...!
just wanna run into the weekends meeting Zone F & the churchies.

school is so different.
people arent so simple anymore; so many facades; so many whispers.
they are the so many things i stand against.

am sticking out like a sore thumb in school.
but thats real good, cause i dont wanna blend in either.
thank God.

ONE. ONE. ONE.
safe within Your hands! just know it..

my heart is in You;
where You go, carry me.
i'll bleed, if You bleed;
Your heart beats inside of me.
You're keeping me alive.

haha.

2009-05-13T00:16:00.003+08:00

'for the least of these'

dont hide the light.
shine!

the world's mupped.
but all the more we should stand.
its the sick that need the cure, not the well.

in your face devil. in your fat loser face.
IN YOUR FACE DEVIL, HAHAHA.
too bad dude, im changing lives, still.
one life at one time.

Power of One.

yeah.

2009-05-11T15:05:00.001+08:00

he continued.
yeah, he continued.

to be continued.

(:

2009-05-05T20:14:00.005+08:00

THE JOY OF THE THE LORD IS MY STRENGTH.

(:

how my heart burns within,
to worship at Your feet..
how my soul longs to see,
the glory of the King..
and i will worship You,
with all that is in me,
for You are worthy...

Grace holds on!

revelation for a revolution.

2009-05-03T22:30:00.004+08:00

"to better ourselves for Him"

all praises,
Jesus its for You.

better myself. all for You.
run run run.

history-makers.

one.

2009-05-03T19:16:00.006+08:00

everyday's a fight,
everyday's a struggle.
and its getting to me..
because im starting to love them.. (:

fights are awesome.
they spice my life.
they brighten my life.
and lives shine because of fights done well.

the coming week will be awesome..
because there's so much to fight for and there's so much to live for.

everyday's a chance to change someone's perspective.
everyday's a chance to bring someone closer to knowing God..

its about grabbing chances and creating opportunities.
grab the chance to talk to someone.
create the opportunity for him to know Jesus.

open my eyes a little more,
and i'll see things in different light.

'missed a point if i had sacrificed one teen in exchange for a sermon to preach for a 100'.
thats Pst's undying commitment.

dont miss the point today..
one generation for one life at a time.

More - Matthew West.

2009-04-26T22:02:00.006+08:00

so awesome man.. just being in love, all over again.. (:
finding footsteps and jumping over potholes!

today was greaT! studied in the morning with WeeJJ and Wayne Lim @ Yewtee. it was super fun and nonsensical man.. and i found out this new generation of people, are totally not afraid of tickles.. oh man. one more added reason to taupok them. (:

and it was great, and Shaun Leow was over at my house last night from 11.45pm - 4.45am! so funny... we literally crept around the house man.. my mum was sleeping so soundly. she dint know we had a lovely intruder. (:

had an awesome time.
have you had yourS? (:

This song has been playing over and over again on my wma..
enjoy!

we are ONE!
Zone F service was awesome..
One. One. One.
We are History-Makers!

i love You... MORE!

when everything fades.

2009-04-21T21:20:00.003+08:00

when it starts to make sense again,
it becomes beautiful.
vision gets clearer.

sometimes, the easiest way out,
is as east as taking a first step.
You said so and i did so.

awesome?
awesome.

greater things are yet to be come,
greater things are still to be done in this city.

i press on.
we press on.

go go go!

revolution.

2009-04-20T22:11:00.003+08:00

do you Jesus?

i know i'm Jesus-ed.

catch yall around soon... (:

Resurrection.
Revival.
Revolution.
ROAR.

cry for faith! (:

2009-04-19T23:17:00.004+08:00

WoooOOOOoooooOOOOOOOOOoooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i love Jesus... (:
do you too?

laughing.

2009-04-18T23:54:00.001+08:00

you cannot limit me just like that.

you fail to limit me like that.

i'll always remember.
limitless.

im set free.

this is in your face.

devotion.

2009-04-13T22:10:00.004+08:00

what is the reason you're alive...?
what is it for...?

i asked the question myself.
and gave myself the answers.

i know i'm one step closer.
keep reaching for me.

follow Lord, where You'll lead me.
taking up the cross.

one day, one day.
(:

alive - P.O.D

2009-04-08T21:07:00.002+08:00

Everyday is a new day
I'm thankful for
Every breath I take

I won't take You for granted
So I learn from my mistakes
It's beyond my control

Sometimes it's best to let go
Whatever happens
In this lifetime

So I trust in Love
You have given me, Peace of mind

I feel so alive
For the very first time
I can't deny You
I feel so alive
I feel so alive
For the very first time
And I think I can fly

Sun shines upon my face
A new song for me to sing

Tell the world
How I feel inside
Even though it might
Cost me everything

Now that I know this
So beyond, I can't hold this
I can never
Turn my back away

Now that I've seen You
I can never look away

Now that I know You
I could never turn my back away
Now that I see You
I could never look away
Now that I know You
I could never turn my back away
Now that I see You
I believe no matter what they say

ROAR.

appreciate.

2009-03-30T22:27:00.006+08:00

You always find me when i'm at my weakest.
You always find me when i'm at my quietest moments..
and really, one way or another, im thankful..

heart's broken.
i cant seem to understand.
its deep frustration that runs so deep.
i know i dont deserve more.

if only loving, giving, understanding,
were as easy as how it seems to be.
if only it is...
oh wells... You know it all.

emo king.

tonight, i sleep a man struggling.

ahh,

2009-03-24T22:31:00.002+08:00

remembering You.
remember You.

You alone are God of all,
You alone are worthy Lord.
And with all I am,
My soul will bless Your Name.

i'm here,
for nothing else, nothing more.
Love You.

in liberty.

2009-03-21T15:50:00.002+08:00

hello my love.

2009-03-20T21:23:00.008+08:00

Closer Than You Think
This devotional was written by Leslie Snyder

"Where can I go from your Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence? If I go up to the heavens, you are there; if I make my bed in the depths, you are there. If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea, even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast." —Psalm 139: 8-10

Love. It transcends time and makes time stand still. It causes people to do funny things and can break the heart of ones close to us. It fights for freedom and dies for a cause. It gives life to the next generation and gives its life for a generation it will never see. Love is deep, secure, strong, loyal, honest and true. It is displayed through a touch, a word, a look or a smile. Love sustains, guides, protects and is closer than you think.

Children know this intuitively. That’s what makes the story 'The Runaway Bunny' so endearing. It follows the conversation of a Mother Bunny and her baby and what would happen if the baby bunny ran away. No matter how elaborate the baby bunny’s plan to run away, the Mother Bunny always comes up with a way to find and care for the baby bunny. Frustrated by his inability to get away from the love of his mother, the baby bunny finally gives up, settles in at home and lets the Mother Bunny care for him.

The Psalmist also experienced this type of love. God and His love surrounded him at all times, in all places, and in all circumstances. Psalm 63:3 reads, "Because your love is better than my life, my lips will glorify you." Today, take the time to notice that you are surrounded by the love of God. There is nowhere you can go that He will not be with you. There is nothing you can do that will keep His love from you. God is strangely and persistently accepting of us and readily waits for us with open arms.

Homeword Devotionals.

validation.

(:

2009-03-11T23:03:00.001+08:00

fire fall down,
oh fire, fall down,
on me,
as i pray...

love You.
felt it.

hello love.

2009-03-09T23:49:00.006+08:00

its never easy to run from your first love. never.

behind the corner, there it lies.
silent, creeping..
overwhelming, hypnotizing.
addiction.

walked under a slight drizzle today after basketball.
felt the raindrops falling again.
refreshing, alive again.
'Hosanna, Hosanna...' we cried.

had a flashback of an identical walk i had years/months back.
it was a slight drizzle.. it was after basketball too.
it was identical..
but that was better.
the sky was brighter then. the sun was still up.

first love first love.

feel Your validation.
feel it, i wanna feel it...
i just wanna feel it.

who understands?

fix me.

2009-03-08T22:48:00.001+08:00

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home,
And ignite your bones,
And I will try to fix you,

High up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I

Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

giving..
its all about giving.
giving giving giving.

God.

2009-03-07T00:02:00.006+08:00

its drying up inside.
and i cant wait to do something more.

inspired.
yet caged.

only You, only You.
only You can fill my heart.
i know nothing else can.
how i need You.

its quicksand that my feet are settled upon.

if i could, i would be right beside You
just to see Your face.
i can give up everything to be by Your side, and see your face.
everything.

i will not be in place until i find the right reasons so.
until i find the meaning again.
i will not be in place unless i know its for real.
until i find the ability again.

words are mere words.
actions are mere actions.
what goes deeper?

let this take weeks,
let this take months,
if it may, let this take my lifetime.

You said, 'Come to Me'
And I'll run to You.
...
Only You can fill my life with Your touch,
Jesus come and fill my soul with Your love.

3.30am with Econs.

2009-03-01T03:29:00.004+08:00

today was good.
Pst How preached a wonderful sermon.
God took it deeper.

'the balance'. (:

felt good today.
even better now.
haha, thanks to Dom. (:

econs econs!

in a blink of an eye, its march already..
treasure time.

death&allhisfriends.

2009-02-23T19:51:00.008+08:00

hmm.

to some:
say whatever that floats your boat.
i dont really feel.

to some people:
love Psts&Dom...
they hold such a special place in the heart..

smile because it happened.
never cry. never fret. please.
God knows because He's forever my Jehovah Nissi.

hope you understand.

herrrhh..

2009-02-21T22:48:00.004+08:00

no, i dont wanna battle from beginning to end.
i dont wanna cycle, recycle, revenge.
i dont wanna follow death and all of his friends.

im still breathing.
and thank God for G.

things are not done and finished yet.
and i dont wanna drag this.

hmmm.

2009-02-09T21:22:00.005+08:00

many times i find myself this close to losing it.
yeah this close.. v close.
many people's been doing things behind my back and i dont feel good about it.
they smoke me through but hey, im neither dumb or dumb.
since the 17 years of living, i know i've been quite a darn smart butt of a human.
if you think im stupid, oh man, look in the mirr......
i think thats stretching myself for this season and that's that for it.

i've got 4 pieces and 1 piece's faulty.
there're another 1001 things grabbing hold of them.
its getting harder and harder to live nowadays, but i guess its really okay.
im made of Yahweh's heart, and if not clay, at least steel too.
you can tug and snatch the 3 away but you wont get all of them, all of me.
1's already gone so forget about grabbing all.

3's parts for living, 4 parts for God.
its always been this way. never changed, never will.
im thankful for sat/sun. yes i am.

school's still crap.
maybe much better with G, ZY and the gang around.
we're almost hooligans but we're hooligans with fun, love and respect.
love us dont hate us. unless you're from basketball.
i wanna go school and chill. i wanna go school and study.
i wanna go crapschool and have a good good laugh.
i wanna go crapschool and laugh my afternoons off.

im all over the place tonight, but bear with me.
we'll sort something out soon.

delinquent crashers.

2009-02-05T22:24:00.013+08:00

in for a fast post..

yesterday was fun.

T saboed G through the choir teacher to audition for choir.
i laughed like mad.
subsequently T and G saboed ZY into having to go for audition.
i laughed like mad.
being part of the gang, ZY and G then saboed me to go for the audition too.
i couldnt laugh anymore.
oh well, it was crap. had no choice, cant pon too, they've got my number.
after a long debate from G and ZY to the teacher, all 3 of us are eligible for choir.
darn... joining choir'll be the last thing that crosses my mind.
how crap, im never going to sing for any auditions again. haha.

today was fun too.

ZY G and I crashed the basketball trials.
we were supposed to run 3.6km under 16 mins.
G's still recovering from his ankle sprain, so ZY and I decided to pace him.
through the 3rd round, the timing was 7-8 mins. HAHA. super jokers..
then after that ZY and I decided to chionnggg.
he came in around 19.40, and i a minute later.
im pretty proud of it ok...esp since i dint run for the whole hols. (:

the bball players were really like :)
cat high sec 2s can trash em anytime, even during recess. haha.
teammates mupped the first game so i dint have any mood at all.
so slacked during the 2nd game and showed GREAT attitude. hahah. great indeed..
ZY and G were CLASSIC. super duper CLASSIC. hahaha. i can laugh my head off tonight.
honestly, its not even an honor to play for this school. theres really no standard.
G can tell you that. really.
its not even worth it to be training/playing alongside them. crap.
you dont ever wanna play beside self-centered, posing, talk big, great body odour and CMI bballers.
now im finally appreciating chs's bball abilities.
in any case. glad i enjoyed myself today.

'this jc should just forget about their ccas. just get their academics right 1st'
this is said by a great great great man.
i agree. totally. 1000%. chop. stamp. gurantee. no refund. just throw receipt away.

tomorrow will be fun.

badminton! hahah.
dont think we'll crash it.
we're desperate to steer clear of choir and taekwando.

rubbish dump.

every other person wants a piece of me.
arggggghh

school3.

2009-02-03T22:16:00.006+08:00

school today was much better.
from a rubbish dump it upgraded to a rubbish bin.

there was a super duper cool dance the J2s did. for once, it did impress me a little!
ahahah.. i shall go learn it well. next wed!
today's games were much more witty-ier and more action-er.
i laughed alot today, enjoyed myself a little. (:
Esther was telling me the J2s' spirit was awesome -- i had to agree.
their cheers were good, dances were good, and their chemistry was really tight and was really great. they were really a team.
they had something the J1's dint have at all.
we also agreed upon the fact school was only worth going today. HAHA.

but the talks from 8am-11am were like crappy and dreadful, and hence the rubbish bin.

haha, oh well. i'll see how it goes.
maybe school4 reverts itself back to the rubbish dump.

worry me not.
im not another k.
im sure im more than that. much more.

heartfesT!!!

school2.

2009-02-02T22:13:00.005+08:00

school was rubbish today.
the admins was horrible.
the intro video was total crap.
the games was garbage.
the atmosphere was disgusting.

in fact, if games were let by my dear F1 & F10 guys, they'll tear the whole building down to its very foundation. they'll make such an impact this jc would cease to exist.
16 17 yrs olds playing mrt game. oh man..
i bet the J1s would wanna go F1 CEG this week.
my heart goes out to the orientation group leaders.

pls pls pls pls give me something to be impressed with...

G's going to pon tmr morning. i wish i could join him but i dont wanna miss the talks..
zzzz.
see.. even someone as great as G wanna pon the 2nd day of school, tell me tell me, the school is really... (:

on the far far far far far far end of the spectrum,
im glad i have with me Dominic and Aaron Shust.
Dom's the man and always the man. no elaboration needed la. (:
Aaron Shust's album was great. the lyricbook had lyrics along with his personal revelations and sharing.
that kind of feeded me.

going back to rubbish chute / garbage dump at 7.30am again tmr.
HAHA. (:

i think i need to find and get more 'ebenezers'..
have a wonderful night,
and cyall this weekend soon.
i hope i'll wake up to a saturday.. (:

no more lifeguards.

school.

2009-02-01T23:51:00.007+08:00

hmm.

now i dont feel good for tmr...
im going somewhere where i....

hmmm.. i think i shall not care too much.
im gonna let the people praise my God, not me.

above all, i know i dont have to question much.
because above all, im still Your Son.

Stillness (Speak to Me) - Aaron Shust

feel Your validation..

picsy.

2009-02-01T02:10:00.005+08:00

school's startin on monday.. (:
told Wenqi im excited but not happy.
its true man.. oh wells. just gotta face it all.
ahah.. its gonna be great, i believE!
take the schools, take the A's. haha (:

service was great!
Hati Hamba brought me back to earth.. haha (:
had a really good time chillin with Dinghan after service. haha.
he's awesome.. he's my bro. lol.

and tmr's theres hangout with some Zone F peeeeeps. looking forward to it.
but gotta get my uniform @ Shaw 1st.
white top black bottoms.
roaarr.. hahah.

sidetracking, i think Aaron Shust's really great.
lol. kinda out of the blue, but yeah, he's good.
good to listen to anytime, anywhere. haha..
good voice and goodwith guitars,
and really looks like sylvester stallone in rambo!
perhaps when he ministers in church, he goes "piang piang!" and the guy falls under the presence of God. =.= oh wells.

these were taken at Caipirinha @ Greenwood Ave.
(:

handsomes & pretty.

handsomes!

handsomes & the aunties. (:

handsomes & pretty II.

yello windo-shoppo!

2009-01-29T02:50:00.000+08:00

what a weeeeek.

went out with mama today to Her Shop.
did some sweeping & mopping there. sweett man.
haha, then met Genghis along with 2 of his friends.
they left early, so Genghis and I continued shopping. haha
then we shopped around Wisma, Taka & Far East.. but bought nothing in the end.
saw this jacket i really liked, but dint have my size, so we went along. haha.

had dinner with Genghis @ this noodle house in Far East.. it was great food. haha
and in the end i bought this CD album by Aaron Shust.
i like his songs man. full of praise.
very relaxed, very child-like, very faith-filled, and very heartfelt.

haha.

and this marks my shoutout for todayy!
(:

catch yall soon, on sat!

b.i.a from CNY

2009-01-27T22:56:00.012+08:00

kciaos!

hey everybody~
back from KL a couple of days back, but dint really have a chance to type it all down.
probably its with the CNY thing going round, hah. but well, here i am.

KL was great, went there with 14 others.
twas super crazy la. ahaha.
reached KL @ 1.30pm on luxury bus, with personal TVs etc, and @ 3.30pm, we were at sunway lagoon!
the honourable feat we achieved was that we finished like 85& of the rides in like 2-3 hours. we just ran from one ride to the other. all the way with Dominic leading, of course. haha!
highlight was the Viking ride man... its massive and it could do a 360 degrees!
everyone screamed like mad, haha, especialy Yonghui and I. Dom went green. (:
the Scream Park was awesome.. its really the best haunted house i've ever been to. its super duper scary.. haha.

theres this section called 'Prison Break', where we try to find out way out from cages and mirrors and from blinking lights.
its a genius's work, really. from all 3D stuffs & the horror clip, the Scream Park producers are just zai. haha.

the Tomahawk was great as well. JO and Joanne kept going 'One more time!' haha. i gave up after the 2nd.
i mean its a super fast and super giddy ride.. couldnt take that. lol. you can check it out on youtube. haha. its... fun. (:
and i think in the end we felt tired leaving sunway because we spent all energy screaming ourselves coarse, and not from all the running. haha (:

we had dinner @ A&Ws, and i had the mozza burger. twas good. the root beer float was good.
everyone missed A&Ws, but not me, muahaha, cause im the only young one there... (:
supper was @ this tzi char place called 'SooKee'. food's great.. they have some great history going on behind its food receipes as well.

on the second day, we did super lot of shopping. just ran around (with Dom leading, of course we had to run) (:
we had lunch @ Sakura. the nasi lemak was great, and in comparison with SG's, they're way better. SG's nasi lemak should go out your tastebuds' windows. and the KING PRAWN NOODLE... *slurrpp* (:

then at night Yonghui and I went for Fish Spa while the more adventurous ones went for foot massage!
hahaha. its super duper funny. both of the screeeeaaammed in the shop like it was our business.
its super duper ticklish... both men screameeeeedddddd. hahahah.
feet felt clean after that though, but its horrifyingly ticklish. hahaha.

nothing much went on the third day, but a little more shopping.
Dom & Charleston both got 2 super nice looking jackets... man, they're going to tear singpost down this weekend. haha.
Dominic's brownish-black jacket's a killer. (:
Yong Hui got a 'Viva La Vida' one. haha. looks great too.
had lunch again @ Sakura's. this time everyone tar-pau-ed for those back in SG.
had to run to catch our bus back to SG though.

reached SG at 10pm and thats the end of the trip! haha.
theres loads more, but not gonna type. hah.

reunion with the Lims 2 days back was really nice.
the food wasnt great, but the atmosphere filled in everything.
it was really funny.. haha.
i think the reason why i've got my humor/nonsense is because of my genes from the Lims. haha.
after dinner, along with bro and 2 cousins, we played Left4Dead!
haha, its super fun la. no one was a burden because everyone was pretty good at CS, and i guess thats why we could finish each mission/chapter fast.. its super fun man.. in the end we gamed for 4 hours! haha
had prata after that, at 2.30am. haha.
gotta L4D soon again! (:

had reunion with all the Chowies yesterday @ Caipirinha, Greenwood Ave.
its a brazillian buffet restaurant, with pretty good ambience.
they serve all kinds of roasted meat, from pork to beef to mutton to chicken to fish. they had chickens' heart too. the food's just great! hahah. super nice.
ate really much, felt good too (:
took pretty much photos too. gonna upload em soon.

and then i stayed home today, did the dishes and watched 'Ip Man' with the family.
haha. how sweet of me. (:

in anycase, im looking forward to HeartFest...
cause im..
back.in.action from CNY!!
(:

and enjoy this song..
its played over and over again in my hotel room, which was shared with Dominic & Roy.
its a really nice chill-able song that soothes my oldbones and leaves me smiling. haha, enjoy~

Shoot the Moon - Norah Jones.

i just had a wonderful CNY season, hows yours? (:

20-heartfest-09

2009-01-20T01:59:00.003+08:00

run run, here we go, we run.
2009 will be beautiful.

here we go...
Zone F.

breakthroughs to breakthroughs.

she said,"In life, its never about how you begin. In life, its about how you end."

2009-01-18T23:59:00.021+08:00

had a great weekend.

i feel really deeply loved by some really special people in my life.
have been on dry, but somehow these people brought me back to my head.
loving people can be hard sometimes, i've had my own experience. yet these people still did, in a really big way.

i lost my phone but my line's back, and i received a particular message from someone close.
its was sent at 1.20pm on Saturday, just before Zone F serivce.
but reading it just an hour ago, the 6-worded message brought me to tears..
im speechless, but really touched..

Dominic's words rang in my head after Zone F - "you've got to take that something out of you.. and go for it." in this case, it took something out of them to love.
they went great lengths for a nobody. and i think it was the same great length that grew the 9 stones, the youth, and now Zone F.
then today Pastor said something and it rang a bell.. "only if you have been loved, then you can love."

theres this mystical beauty in and within church.
its mysterious, and at the same time such a beauty.
perhaps its the love of God and perhaps its the love for people.
in any case, its flowing around and im catching this lovebug..
its... really a beauty.
perhaps this is what attracts people to us,
and perhaps this is what attracts us to people.

putting love aside, Pastor Lia preached an awesome sermon, part 2 of BGR, on Sat...
3Ms and 3Cs.
"The Lord will perfect that which concerns me" wow..
something's stucked in my mind rgding that. its goes way deep inside.

played bowling after that. haha
Pastor was super awesomely good at bowling man. she topped 2 out of 3 games. Jon, Ivan and Joanne were great too, while we the mere mortals struggled hard to bowl. haha
Wayne was the classic macho-man-struggling-to-control-his-strength-on-the-bowling-ball-with-ultimate-grace.
he's so super funny. hahaha.

today was great too.
Pastor How preached another great sermon. ;)
co-dependant / inter-dependant.

in any case, the week's been good.
and im having another awesome week ahead.
value each day, and you'll value a week.
value each week, and you'll value a year.

through it all.
ciao! catch yall around..

from RHCP's Charlie:
we dont arrive, without a surprise.

2009 will be THE YEAR with THE TEAM. ;)

hmmm

2009-01-16T23:15:00.005+08:00

its friday night.
and i really really cant wait for Zone F service..
i need it. im churning sick inside man.

hmm, i gotta go the river!
kciao!

(edits)
hmmm. im kinda liking and chilling to the RHCP.
Mark 'RD' Yen's influence.
i like the song 'under the bridge'

it says:
i dont ever wanna feel, like i did that day.
take me to the place i love,
take me all the way.

(:

above all, You love me.

and im never emo. ahaha

a page off the diary.

2009-01-15T23:28:00.003+08:00

had a ^)(&#)(@*!)^$ day yesterday.
woke up at around 11am and then met Genghis and Esther at 2.10pm.
we were supposed to meet at 1pm, but then Esther waited for the 2 men for an hour. haha..
lost my phone on a taxi, and theres a strong gut feeling the uncle kept the phone for himself.
oh welllls...

anyway the 3 of us visited Ngee Ann, and we got to talk to 3 directors of the school, so therfore really it was a priviledge.
knew alot more about the work scope and direction the courses were headin towards etc.
so yeah..
when we were about to leave and eat lunch we bumped into Yolanda, and she told us about the best canteen food in NP, and we headed there and had Kaki Yuko or something like that.. it was ok la. hahha.

then we went our separate ways at 5.30pm, and i went to Genghis's house!
woah i tell you.. the condo he lives in is literally like Paradise. for a moment i thought i was in heaven.. its just super shiok. just.super.shiok
there was a gym, swimming pool, tennis courts, basketball courts, netball courts and loads of sculptures and greenery. and i bet the view from any apartment there is awesome -- the condo sits right beside a hill...
its like a wonderland/dreamhouse for me laaaa. hahaha
*envies Genghis* hahaha
i'll have to ton over his house SOON. :D

we chatted and chatted, and decided to feed/kill the koi fishes in the pond with bread. HAHA.
so we headed down to Cheers @ Esso where we bumped into Anita, the director of Mass Com at NP, and it turned out she was buying bread too, except to feed her family.

so anyway we headed back to Genghisland and started feeding the koi fishes.
out of sorrow/mischief, we decided to get the fishes stucked on dryland and started placing the bread on higher rocks so that in order to eat, they'll have to flip out of the pond, get the bread, and flip back into the pond. it was stupid, but it was great fun.

and this is also what you get if you have 2 creative/emo/sucidal/sadistic men together for 2 hours. Kevin Low joined in the fun when he returned from school, and with another jumbo pack of bread...
oh wells, then we had fun until 8pm and i headed home.

it was a nonsense evening spent, but well, i needed time to de-stress and go nonsensical too.
hahahahaha.
thank God for Genghis and Esther. :)

assured.

2009-01-13T02:21:00.004+08:00

and here i go into a totally new phase of my life..
its gonna be exciting... i know. :)

new strengths, new dimensions, new doors.

every turn leads to a different path.
mine's just a little more winding..

catch yall around.
gdnights.

sweet sweet monday.

2009-01-12T10:58:00.002+08:00

i have exactly 3 hours before reporting time.
its a countdown!
haha..

last night was great. QT was in a different way.
God dint speak, neither did i. we both just felt.
twas great man. it was powerful..

yup, im assured because i'm God dependant.
haha (:

aight, im off to Catholic High School.
feels really funny wearing my sch uniform again.. esp with the dyed hair. haha.
it'll be fun.

anddd..
HeartFesT!

elephants elephants & more elephants.

2009-01-11T23:34:00.004+08:00

HOLA!

YEAH MAN.
only 14 hours left...
sweet sweet..

*victory cry*
Have no fear! Let them hear!
Im so clear, God is always always here!

haha, cya at the finishing line.
seriously, i think this is really being fully-assured in GOD.
haha. no fear really! ...i think theres something wrong with me.

hmm, cheers aside,
im looking forward to meeting Ivan tmr evening!
aweeesomic.. ;)

Come Come, Come to the River!

o levels!

2009-01-11T02:22:00.002+08:00

haha.
results will be ready in about.. say.. in about 35.5 hours' time!
im excited mannn.
somehow now theres only 2 what-ifs and a gazillion confirm-cans.
nah, im not confident or whatsoever, im just... ready to go anywhere!
jc, poly, ite, mi, pgsm, army, woodbridge..... anything la! i just wanna live life. (:

2009's great. even just being 10 days into it.
cant wait to get to the end of this year.. i just know it'll be a great year i'm living in.
Pst Lia said 'Value of a Day' last Saturday and its still stucked in my head.
now, 'Value of a Year' comes stickin around. just... purrrrfeccctttt..

today was awesome. haha..
Zone F service was great, as usual. ;)
and HeartFest collection's a sucess too.. wonderful.
HF HF.. come 14th Feb, it'll be wonderful..

in anycase, tonight im a simple man who has completed many things and still have many things to complete.
this is a lovely life im living..
and now.. im back to working!

catch yall around..
gdnights and ciao!

60 taupoks!

food for thought.

2009-01-06T01:50:00.007+08:00

2 nights ago, a question came into my mind as i lay in bed with the lights on.
it was out of the blue and it struck me with much intensity.
it brought me on to think more for 2009 and the plans i have.
it brought me on to think more for my life and people around me.

17's approaching in 3 months time but yet i feel stucked at a younger age.
i dont really like being a teen. haha. let me be a boy or be a man.
its kinda crappy stucked in between. its like having a body size in between Medium and Small. you dont fit in comfortably in either, you dont look good in either too.

Small too's small to fit in. Medium's too big for comfort.
i wish to live life as a Sec 2 again, but its all in the past.
i wish im living life as a Uni Stud, but thats a few more years down the road.
JC/Poly years are approaching. sure im excited, but im dreaded by the fact i've still got 2 - 3 more years of studying and to top it off, 2 years of NS.
its like having a pandan sponge cake with kaya icing on it. just... yucks.

i find myself a few decisions into adulthood. im clear about where im heading for in life, although its not crystal clear enough. its shady, but wipe a few years off and i'll be straight through into living as an adult. hope God brings me through.

in any case, i heard O'levels results will be out next week, if not the one after the next.
im not excited, really. im just pretty nervous, just like anyone else.

yup. thats all.
suddenly, i dont feel like blogging the rest of the post.
im just gonna leave this as it is.
now, im going to seek God.

tonight, im a 20% acting-matureand 80% wanting-God person.

i shall fit myself into the Medium sized shirt..
haha. catch yall soon.

gdnights and gdbye.

Hosanna,

Hosanna in the highest..

(:

2009-01-04T21:46:00.007+08:00

hola! Heart Awards was great. haha.
the service feel was different and it was really fun. awesomic.
the Zone F dance was super hilarious and we revived the old ancient days when we did it in FTMS house's art gallery. haha.
"ohhhh... oh-uh babey (oo-ahh!) ... i wanna knoww... if you'll be my girlllll... (ooh-ahh!) "

above all, Dominic's sermonette spoke to my heart.
honoring the Man of God. (:
without honoring Pastors, you cant honor Dominic. and without honoring Dominic, you cant honor us.
what we are today, and what the church can be today, is what Pastors have given with their lives.
a life for another life, a dream for another dream. i guess thats what happened on Calvary too. and simply for that, give them glory.

bus tour was crazy as well. it was awesome seeing everyone taking responsibility for their schools. Cat High Cat High! its gonna be different this year! haha
highlight was the ride back to church... everyone was screaming their lungs out singing praise songs. 2 teams were battling it out, mainly girls vs guys (+Joanne) Joanne was brainstorming what songs to challenge the other team while Jason went mad and and Justin became the prototype monkey. hahah. it was just crazy la.

wooooohoooo, back to living the ordinary days.
everyone's back to school and im back to living life.
found alot of room to work on and its exciting all over again in a whole new way.
60 60 60. (:
cant wait to sow seeds and to farm againn.. YEAH!
60!

have a wonderful&purposeful week ahead.
ciao!

new post for a new year.

2009-01-01T23:23:00.011+08:00

hola!
2008 was good. it was really good, not exactly an awesome hyped-up year, but well enough. haha. also realised i've grown really much through the year. both spiritually and mentally. its just.. great!
fret not, its just the beginnings of leadership. oh yeahhhhhh

had a wonderful start to 2009!
countdown in church was incredibly fun with all the crazy people around. it was hugs after hugs and blessings with blessings. and cat high gang went around tossing people up in the air! oh man, it was just sooo fun. wahahaha. Dom's look on his face when we surrounded him was just priceless!

tonning over Dom's house that night was fun too. went over with Eeshen, Lumbin, Mark, Johncelin and Matthew. watched Rush Hour 2 and had nuggets. before we slept we tore John's *woohoo* hahaha. twas crazy.

oh well, last night of 08 was well-spent.
09's gonna be much better.
God, we heard 60! haha.

and to the rest of the mere mortals out there,back to schooling! haha

gdnights, have an awesome 09. (:

i love this pic.. haha (:

okay~

2008-12-28T21:29:00.005+08:00

1. The person who tagged : Kai Bin
2. Your relationship with him: A Very Good Friend
3. Your impressions of him: A Very Good Friend
4. The most memorable things he had said to you: "Yeah..."
5. The most memorable thing he had done to you: He said "Yeah..."
6.If he becomes your lover, you will: Puke :)
7.If he becomes your lover , thing he has to improve on will be: Becoming a real woman.
8.If he becomes your enemy , you will: Offer my cheeks.
9. If he becomes your enemy , the reason will be: I offered my cheek.
10.The most desired thing you want to do for him now is: Offering my cheek. HAHAHA
11.Your overall impression of him is: Impression slip style - 8/10
12.How do you think people around you will feel about you: Dont matter at all.
13.The characteristics that you love about yourself are: The characteristic called "Im not perfect"
14. On the contrary , the characteristics you hate of yourself are: I dont hate myself mann.
15. The most ideal person you want to be is: A Jesus named Chun Kit. hahah :)
16. People who cares about and likes you , say something to them: Have a blessed 2009! YaysY!

There u go Kaibin! (:

gonna update blog soooon

yeah ok.

2008-12-26T01:56:00.001+08:00

in times like this, all i need is silence. and a guitar.
God oh God.

my God is greater.

2008-12-22T23:53:00.003+08:00

im in for a blog before working. ;)

just came home from a whole day of fellowshipping with Mark.
he's so awesome.. haha. every man should learn to be like Mark. he's a real man.
strong and tight in God, ultimate in studies, powerful in bass, make things happen, a leader, handsome, rich... whatever you want, he has it. hahaha.
someday i'll get him the Mr. Perfect shirt we saw today at penin. haha.

yet above all, it isnt about Mark. but it's about the God Mark believes in.
today, i wow-ed at Him&him myself.
the willingness to learn, the humility, the brokenness, the openess he has towards God.. its just amazing. he is what he is because he was available and ever-ready for God to work in him.

and even around the zone, we see people like that.. poised and ready for God. people like Dominic, Ivan, Joanne, Jiaxin, Wayne, Randyne, Mark, Lumbin and many many more... they're awesome because they were ready for God.

ZoneF ZoneF ZoneF.
we're a different generation because they set us apart.
how long will it take you to see it...?

in any case, the song 'My God Reigns' has a special place in my heart.
its somehow more than a song and more than a simple worship... its like a testimony and a proclaimation to the world.
its like holding God's finger with one hand and preaching to the world with another.
its like me showing the world how great my Father is, whose love never fails and greater in every situation, no matter how small a child i am.

my God is greater,
my God is over all.

great day.

2008-12-19T03:01:00.004+08:00

as i lay in bed later, i'll be kept awake by the conversation I had with Ivan in the taxi.

how true, leadership is simply, yet also incomprehensibly, just a self-fulfilling propecy. its simply just - what you think they will be, they will be. what you think you will be, you will be.

Zone F, Zone F, Zone F, Zone F, Zone F.

God could always make the stars come in line, the circumstances at prime, the situation perfect, but what goes through your mind determines it all.
leadership is a self-fulfilling prophecy.

they cut us off so we become different.

'Zone F will make a statement'.

gdnight, sleep tight.

soft and silky

2008-12-16T22:49:00.006+08:00

i went to my aunt's saloon with mama today.
i cut my hair.
i dyed it.

the results was AWESOME....... right. aunt jacked me....crap.

somehow i couldnt change the destiny of my soft silky smooth hair.
now i REALLY look like one of the yalam boys who spend their nights squatting next to the mama shop.

oh man, oh man... im so want for my almost-long hair.. then now its back to short! i was so close to it... ahhhhhh.
so sorry Zone F... there wont be anymore Chace Crawfords or Joe Jonases left. HAHA.

but stillllll, im really glad i went to do the hair because i really spent great time with mama. (:

haha anyway, the CCH people are really awesome... just love them loads.. young and powerful.. (:
its just super fun and funny to hang around with them and nonsense with them. Wayne, Jason and Justin are just super jumpy person. hahaha yea! awesomic.

here are some pics with em at T1 last week.

hahah, life's good! just cant wait to meet Ivan tmr night. hahaha. life's awesome!

disclaimer: this is not an emo post. its a having-a-bad-hair-for-the-next-2-months post. :D

My God Reigns.

2008-12-16T00:34:00.006+08:00

I have a hope so sure
An anchor for my soul
My peace in the worst of times
I trust in God alone

Let every voice declare it now

My God reigns
His love will never fail me
My God reigns – He’s ruling over all
In all my life
In every situation I know
My God is greater
My God is over all

By faith I have believed
And on this truth I stand
No power in life or death
Can take me from His hand

My God is greater, my God is greater
My God is greater, my God is greater
(My God is greater, my God is over all)

Above all sickness, above all fear
Above every heartache here
In earth and heav’n – My God reigns
Above all power, above all thrones
The greatest love I’ve ever known
Today, forever, my God reigns

Sometimes, some songs just describe your heart through and through and just represents what your heart really wants to say.

its more than a song, its more than the chemistry the worship team has, nor is it the amount of enthusiasm the congregation can muster up.. sometimes, its just a simple heartfelt cry, a sound of desperation to God and with that, nothing ever else matters.

many times i've come to the altar of God and i never ever want to leave it and yet theres also many times i cant wait to leave. but now, its one of those time whereby its not enough at all.. its never enough.. just never enough.. a simple worship in an atmosphere like this can just go on for hours, days, or even years, and i dont mind at all. because above all, above all integration cases, above all follow-ups, above all discipleships, above all AMTs and BMTs, above all Heartfests, its about one Person and one Thing.

i dont care what may happen next, just let me worship my God..

we sang this powerful song during F1 CEG and F2 CG Combined Connect Group... and the presence hit us so strongly..

enjoy..

My God Reigns.mp3 - Abundant Life Worship

wooo! (:

2008-12-15T19:55:00.008+08:00

im going to dye/highlight my hair tmr nite man.
haha, im somehow excited.. woooo!
lets see how it shall turn out. ;)

raaaa-raaaa-raaaadical!

60's 70's night was awesome! hahaha. its really fun.

preggo Tock and stickie CK!

and Show Me What You've Got was cool too.
too bad F10 pulled out at the last minute. hahah. it'll be so stupid if we had gone ahead with the plan... HAHA. it'll be seriously disastrous..

then Kenn and I tonned over Dom's house last night after supper-ing with Fifi, Darryl, Tock, Matthew and some of the rest at rochor tauhuay. then the 3 of us headed over to Dom's house. it was just fun. shopped at 7-11 for noodles and chips then we, or rather i, watched about 1/2 of Munich before both of them conceded defeat and went to sleep. gotta continue it someday tho, its a good thriller.

so its fun! really. hahah.
Kenn and his disposable *woohooo* and me and my 1.45 dollars darlie rabbit toothbrush. hhahaha

its monday! theres alot to plan and work..
its gonna be beautiful and so awesomic. (:
catch everybody around soon ~

raaaaaaadical.

2008-12-13T01:13:00.006+08:00

finally found a time to blog!

AMT was great, Re-org mtg was great, RadicalNite was just as great too.

AMT was just awesome.. learn quite abit and really got closer to God via long prayers and long worship sessions. night after the 1st day of AMT was great. fellowshipped quite a bit with Ian and Alastair! learnt quite abit of guit from em... muahaha. we'll see. (: *smirks*

the 4am worship/prayer session was so powerful. honestly i never felt anymore alive during the whole AMT than that morning. joy of the Lord became my adrenaline rush and i just came alive. it was powerful, really.

during the 1/2 hr QT i heard God leading me back to the artiste room and i found Joanne, Ian and Mark worshipping. joined them and God's presence there was just so strong.. so different. i mean its really different worshipping with a full band and with just a guitar. and God was there, stronger than many times i've worshipped with a full band playing in church. in that artiste room with a guitar, it was His tangible presence that i felt.. just awesomic. Thank You.

dint really want AMT to end, but it did. then spent some time administrating and playing guit with Mong. then went to dota a lil with F2 peeps before heading back to church for Re-org.

Re-org was great. looking at how the whole church works at a macro level was nice. so awesome. everything's changing.. yeah baby!

the atmosphere is changing... can you hear, the people rising up in the hope of Your freedom?

Radical night was just as awesome. revival's bursting out and breakin free. im imagining... one day, MOE will implement Youth M.A.D in every primary, secondary schools and junior colleges. OH BABY. im so loving this... and yes today K.Lisa said something which tapped on a new perspective, it goes something like this - "the devil used them to prosecute us, but really we were very glad it happened, because it showed us that he devil was panicking" -- this is really awesome. in your face dev, we're rising up.

woooooooooo. and yeah its so promising. theres much to do, and much to work on, and im really excited. gonna go tonning at Dom's hse on sunday night! wooots.

love yall. catch ya around soon! be raaaaadical, stay raaaaadical~

Two CKs.

lurvee-ly.

2008-12-09T02:15:00.006+08:00

hey guys.
im here to update a lil before heading off to AMT later in the morning.
haha, life's good. really good.
im excited for everything, and im lovin it. far too loving it. haha.
for everyone else, i hope you're living life the way you want, and loving it your way too.

and yes! F10's signing up for 'Show me what you've got'.
stick around and watch out for us this weekend.... muahahaha!
betcha its gonna be hilarious. HAHAHA

and here you go!

My Savior My God (Album Version) - Aaron Shust

enjoy, and catch yall around man. (:
and yes you, nono, YOU, are really mupping my mood. rargh.
detestable. roaR!

a day out.

2008-12-03T21:59:00.010+08:00

im in for a short blogging time! wahahaha.

today was real fun. woke up at 12, 2 hours later than expected. had to shift aside some things that i'd planned, but managed to do really well. hahaha
met Weibin at 3.30pm at Macs and did his last follow-up! congratsy. woooo.. haha
then met Leow at 4.30pm in church for his first follow-up! haha, the old and the new.. oh wells.

hung out a lil while in church before heading down to yishun with Leow to meet up with Kaibin! its been almost 3 years since we last saw him. nah, kidding, but it was a real long time ago man, like 1.5 months? so we ate at the jap restaurant at northpoint which tasted pretty normal, and in the end we hung out at macs with me ending my day with an awesome doub.cheeseburg. oh baby..
haha. it was really just so funny and nonsensical with both of them around. (:

we are the super duper teenage boyband!

Mr.Romeo.

raaaaawwwrrrrr!!! (:

Chun Kit and Kaibin!

helllos, teethy-smiles.

and thanks Jordan for the mp3.. its awesomic.

love and be lovely. catch ya around. (:

and words aren't enough.

2008-11-24T20:50:00.007+08:00

woke up at 3.15pm today with half the day gone.
was really tired after Asia Conf. but it was really powerful.. real powerful. God moved and will move in an unimaginable scale and way. haha.. insulated to penetrate.. im changed.

had shaun over at 4pm and we cold-storaged for spaghetti ingredients. then went over to my house and cooked them up. we had mushrooms, cheesy sausages, tomatoes and alfredo sauce with us. and it was really funny having 2 men working in a kitchen. lucky suzana intervened before we blew ourselves up. hahaha
in the end, our alfredo tasted pretty weird because it was way too tomato-ish. but the spag was good itself. oh wells, we'll try at shaun's house next week. promise!

then we listened to the dota song and watched hilarious videos on youtube and had an awesome time learning the guit together. shaun shall pass the audition. (:
its always great to fellowship with leow..
its always great to fellowship with my generation.

determination counts. it so counts.
had another talk with Dom a few days back and really, im blessed to have him around.
God has a real reason why He placed me under Dom. wooooo! its just awesomic.

now, suddenly for a moment i was sad that i've already graduated, but im sure theres a greater reason why im this old this year. oh wells, we're in God's plan.
"as i work, my Father works."

lifes really good. excitement's slipping away and determination's seeping in.
seems like the hols are sitting in perfectly.
we're going to see changes and there'll be breakthroughs promised by God.
determination. determination. determination.
this, is lovely.

its 24th of November... warning! hols are ending...
use your time wisely!

and for those who are trying to grab my attention,
thanks for going the extra mile.
but you're really irritating,
because, im not interested (:

Worthy - Christian City Church

Could it be You're in control
Now I see I don't know it all
But if You stripped it all away
I'd still be able to say

You're my God
And none can compare You're the One
You gave us our breath
And in Your shadow I will wait
To hear Your voice and know Your way

Glory, all that has breath give Him glory
Lift up our God who is always
Beginning and end
You are

Let the earth sing
We lift up our hands and exalt Thee
Redeemer of all
You have mercy
Above all be glorified

Worthy,
You alone are worthy
You alone are Holy
You alone are God

siann, Nikki Fletcher is already married..
haha, kidding! shes just real good.
my wife's gotta be like her man.

ciao, have a faith-filled night..

afterthoughts.

2008-11-21T01:59:00.002+08:00

its 2.04am on friday.

theres much to say, but i dont wanna say much.
just....

to live is Christ, to die is gain.
today, you determine your own destiny.

you can glare at me.

2008-11-18T22:21:00.014+08:00

had 2 long talks with Dom a few days back and i found my point of view changed and turned.
many things that used to seemed to so all gradually changed during the past few days.
we touched on the subject of worldliness.
and yes, i hate worldliness. i do i do and i do.
i so do.

dont ever come to me, and tell me you're two-timing my God with the world.
because now, i detest your spirit.
if you want to serve, then serve with all your heart, mind and soul.
dont take my God for granted, and serve because everyone else around you's doing so.
neither do you serve because you cant find a better way to burn your time.
if you're hanging on because you need an insurance and gurantee to heaven, then piss off to suntec. they've got what u need.

i hate it when someone takes granted of anything, anyone, and much more my God. and i hate it too, when someone pushes Him away..
He deserves much much more.. remember Calvalry?
He has His unconditional love, but i dont have mine.
please, let your spirit die.
when you start to indulge in this world, you know something's wrong. solve it.

and yes, im really angry.
yet so sorry. im so, so sorry.
im sorry, because im radical.

here is a devotional from Homeword written by Kelly McFadden. and here it goes:

Galations 1:10 (NIV)
Am I now trying to win the approval of men, or of God? Or am I trying to please men? If I were still trying to please men, I would not be a servant of Christ.

It seemed like any other recess in eighth grade. A group of us were all outside playing when it happened. I overheard a boy tell one of my friends that he didn’t like me. I was devastated. Now, this wasn’t someone I particularly cared for either, but the words stung all the same. Someone didn’t like me. To be honest, that had never occurred to me before. I went home that afternoon wounded and working to figure out what I could do differently.

I learned a very important lesson that day: No matter what you do, you will never be liked by everyone. Even more important is the lesson I learned later: The most important opinion to hear is God’s voice, not the voice of people. If you live your life trying to please everyone, you will only fail. Approval-seeking from others will only serve to get you in trouble. We must focus on what God sees in us and desires for us. That will lead to a life well-lived.

So what does God want from us? He wants us to live a life that is pleasing to Him and set apart. He wants us to love our neighbors, love ourselves and have an attitude of service to all around us. He wants us to recognize that we are no better than anyone else. We are equal in His eyes. He wants us to rest in His hope and strength. And more than anything, He wants us to know, that even when we fall short of His standards, He loves us unconditionally.

In all of us, there is a little girl or boy wanting to be liked. And that is not bad in itself. The danger comes when we make those opinions count more than what God thinks. God views us the same each and every day. We are His beloved creations, made in His image. There is nothing that can separate us from His love.

there you go and ciao.
stay warm and stay radical, my loves.

Worthy (Live) - Christian City Church

Fly.

2008-11-12T23:25:00.002+08:00

hola people!

its lovely. did my chem paper (last paper!) this morning. mupped it, but im cool. ;)
and its time to give my all for my All!
cant wait to go on full force... its ages and eons ago that im somewhere near this.
i've been waiting for this time for way too long yet now its here, it feels numb. the excitement had already went past its meter. seems like whatever that has happened is settling itself into place for this moment.
its like everything's in the right place, everything's perfect, everything's waiting for us.. at a standstill, waiting for us to start running...

so in this moment, determination counts. it counts so, so much. theres much to do, and much time to do so. so let me grab this... and i will never, never let this go away. and i cant wait to grow exponentially again, cant wait to breakthrough again. both spiritually and physically.

did some basketballing at changkat with some peeps from F1 CEG today, along with Ah-Benedict. was awesome. had much fun, and in the spirit, im sure many of us feel that something today's changed. great job guys... (:

and yes baby! theres so much events lined up.. theres STRIKE-IT.... TGIO(*smirks*)... CANDY WEEKEND.... 80'S WEEKEND..... just simply super awesomic...
last and really the least, theres a cat high prom night tmr @ Marina Mandarin.. will be getting pics up tho. i bet its gonna be hilarious with some guys wearing sch uni.. (:

ciao guys.
im loving my life, just try not to be that jealous.
and also, please start preparing for your O's man.
(;

untitled.

2008-11-09T23:32:00.003+08:00

watched HSM 3 with Shaun last night at sunplaza.
hahahha.. its kinda weird having 2 guys watching sucha show late at night, but oh wells. we dint wanna watch quantum of solace, and there were less than 13 people watchin HSM.. really weird..
and throughout the movie we were guessing when will the people start singing again, which was really hilarious... the popcorn lady dint hear us and so the popcorn wasnt sweet. rargh! but anyway the movie's good. haha.
then we had supper! roti prata and beef horfun.. had a good time fellowshippin with him.

and back to the present!
been studying physick mcqs, but have been feeling mupped lately.
gonna work something out these few days man!
and F10's gonna breakthrough! soon soon... lurve-ly.

have been chillin to the mjq for quite awhile.
and it reminds me of 'i've got soul but im not a soldier!'
ciao.. cya soon. real soon. (:

shaun leow shuai ge

2008-11-08T01:35:00.006+08:00

hi everybody. im on the phone with ah shaun. i told him i needed a post title and he has kindly provided it for me (:
and now he's singing some weird chinese song which dont really sound like chinese.. and he's spammin some pizza receipe on our msn convo..

We're gonna bring an anthem of love. says:
Smoked Turkey Bacon, Beef Pepperoni, Mushrooms, Fresh Tomatoes & Onions

it kinda... makes no sense.

anyway, it is now... 1.42am!
and im feeling crazy...
lit exam was good, should get what i have in mind ;)

and yes, service was awesomic!
presence of God was really thick.. it was gaining ground on new levels.
we brokethrough over Nick Vujicic's services, and service just now was like consolidating everything..
Pst Kong was great and he shared really faith-filled stuff. its just what i need from now til year 2009... (:
breaking hearts, breaking thru. yeah baby.
just had a pleasant time with the F1 guys together with some of the F23 pplsb.. had supper at macs before headin home!

and now shaun's talking about dota... "3 butters are crazy"..

and recently lifes been really funny.
i just gotta blog this, this is awesomely hilarious, and i shall type in proper english:

A few days back, I was on the train back home and there was a middle-aged lady in a skirt who sat beside me. Across on the opposite seat, there sat a man - geeky, bespectacled, probably in his late 20s and single. *So this man was a 'cheeko-peh', and was trying to look up the lady's skirt.*

There and then, I got pretty irritated and angry, and I decided to make him stop his nonsense. So I leaned forward...

(imagine me sitting on a seat on the mrt and leaning forward like this guy)

and I glared at him. HAHAHA -- so it became pretty obvious to EVERYONE on the train that I was actually studying him. When he finally realized I caught him in the act, his cheeks reddened and his ears turned flaming red man.. He was blushing! Man I could have died from laughter just looking at his sheepish expressions...

At that point of time, I, being mischievious, really wanted to stand up, point and laugh at him in his face, and make the 'loser sign'.. and how awesome that would be. But the BEST OF ALL - this guy TRIED TO ACT THAT HE FELL ASLEEP. He closed his eyes and rested his head backwards on the glass window for several times and tried to look normal.. After awhile, he gave up trying to sleep and then began to try and avoid eye contact with me, and I, was looking at him in the eyes all the while. I could FEEL that he felt so so so awkward and so so so uneasy... HAHA, and the guy's actions really really looked dumb and stupid and I couldnt help but kind of chuckled at him. And the lady beside me thought I was wrong -.- oh wells, it was a good laugh anyway.. he's seriously hilarious. HAHA

side tracking:

shaun:
eh ck, slyd..

ck:
whats that? simi slyd?

shaun:
shaun leow yan dao.

man. shaun's crazy too.

yeah man, life's good.
gonna get so much better... because i've got 2 tiny puny papers left.
gotta aim for perfect scoreS for chem and phy paper ones! and yeah.. this coming holidays will be so awesome man.. cant wait for it to start.
aint gonna start working and plowing yet... gonna plan my steps now, and put em to use when the 12th comes.

all the best people.
work hard, play hard.
i've worked hard, and rest assured, im going to play really really hard. (:

ciao, God bless!

tasting the air at 2.01

2008-11-07T01:57:00.002+08:00

its early morn, still studying for lit.. heres something for you.

from tkam - the definition of true courage:
'when you know you've been licked before you begin but you begin anyway, and you see through it no matter what'

seems like my plight! :D
but im loving it anyway. haha. meeting Shaun later for follow-up *cheeRS!*
its gonna be awwwwesomicccc...

nothing here stops a man.

oh yeah, and the air tastes wonderful ;)

Living Sacrifices.

2008-11-04T22:59:00.003+08:00

what a rollercoaster ride these few days.
got my doors open. and He got His too. ;)
its awesomic.

searched for Jon.Doug on youtube and found & watched his sharing @ CHANGE on the heart of worship. then linked here and there and watched Josh Kelsey and his sharings. twas all good.. learnt quite abit. and JD's too cool man. hah.

Romans 12:1-2 (NIV)
Therefore, I urge you, brothers, in view of God's mercy, to offer your bodies as living sacrifices, holy and pleasing to God - this is your spiritual act of worship. Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is - his good, pleasing and perfect will.

Worship is more than just the 20 minutes in church where you raise your hands and sing out. Worship is far more than what you can make the most out of the time when everyone's dwelling in God's presence.
Worship, is about 2 words - Thank You.

Greater is He! (:

:)

2008-11-02T22:31:00.004+08:00

GOD, I LOVE YOU. I REALLY DO.

i'm sorry guys, i just gotta say this. hahah
anyway, my tagboard's got something wrong with it. i cant post!
so -- ciao everybody! thanks for everything and anything. lurves.

byes everybody, im goin back to...
s-t-a-r-d-e-e-i-n-g

battlin it out. ;)